Last week, I had so much fun learning about some fabulous new Etsy boutiques from the Share Your Hearts giveaway (giveaway winners to be announced this week!). Thank you for providing a wonderful distraction from the chaos and excitement that fills my life during these last two weeks of wedding preparation.
To be honest… I don’t feel ready, which is strange since we’ve been engaged for 2.5 years and dating for 8 years. I have ZERO nervousness surrounding the decision to spend the rest of my life with my best friend and prince charming… but I’m nervous about being “good enough” on the actual day. There are the silliest worries, but rather than hide behind a facade of everything is just “perfect” and “wonderful”… I thought I would share some of the randomness running through my mind, right now :). Any advice or “I totally had that thought or… have you had this random thought…” are one hundred percent welcome and would be lovely to read so I can know for sure that it’s not just me!
:: unfiltered random + somewhat embarrassing thoughts ::
… i wish i had done this and that for this person or that person to show my appreciation
… i could do something different than the “this and that” mentioned above to show different people my appreciation (but when do i have the time?)
… i am a horrible bride and should have done x, y, and z a year ago (why did i wait so long?)
… did i pick the right dress? it’s gorgeous, but is it the right dress for me?
… i have no idea how to write my vows… i’ve tried and tried but the words aren’t right
… will i have time to truly enjoy the actual day or will i be too busy pleasing everyone else?
… i wish i had done more cute little stuff for my hubby to be for the wedding day (and his birthday – the day before)
… will i be a good wife? what does that even mean — a good wife?
It has been a long journey to get to where I am today… where we are today as a couple. And I want to focus on that element of our wedding — this new chapter together. I want to relish our special moments and stop worrying about perfect anything. It’s a struggle, but one that I’m going to embrace rather than ignore. I want to enjoy this time as a couple and forget about expectations and labels. And the hubby to be is my partner in this battle — I couldn’t be luckier.
:: must share this video – you and me by dave matthews band – soo deliciously good ::
Disclaimer: For the next couple of weeks, I will try to balance my sappy wedding posts with “regular” posts but be prewarned that I haven’t prescheduled anything so I may be blogging a bit more about the journey down the aisle and all that comes with it!
… Anything you want to know about this time? Chime in and I’ll be sure to write about it!
images (top left to right, clockwise): AlicesLookingGlass, MyFairLadee, wrenandchickadee, vilarrealceramics, “make me happy” bear via etsy treasury (can’t find store name! please comment if you know the source)
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