Dream

Over the next few months, I will be writing periodic reports on my little paper dream. These reports are written in a journal format to help express how this journey unfolds. I would love your feedback/comments as I write these reports (would be really helpful!). Also, if you have any questions, please don’t hesitate to ask in the comments or via email!

If you are new to this little dream of mine, catch up by reading dream report no. 1, no. 2, and no. 3

photo: confetti system

The Little Paper Dream Has a Name!

If you are signed up for the little paper dream mailing list, you found out awhile ago the name of this dream of mine (and why the name is so important to me).

The name of the Little Paper Dream is Two Rubies. This name is something I’ve always wanted to use for a project, but never had a project that warranted such a personally important name.

While Two Rubies is the name of this little paper dream, it’s also the name of something I hope becomes much more beyond this dream project. The Big Dream: to run Two Rubies with my sister, Kimberly (she doesn’t know yet!).

My sister and I are the “two rubies.” The nickname comes from our last name, Rubenstein. However, when my sister gets married soon, she may be changing her last name. Regardless of our names, our relationship as sisters will always be etched in our identity. Having a sister, being a sister, is a sacred gift.

I hope Two Rubies becomes the home for your most important gifts—especially the gifts and sentiments you give to those you love most.

In my mind and in my heart, this little paper dream is the catalyst for something much bigger—something that will evolve with time and perspective. I believe and hope that like family, Two Rubies will be a constant in my life. It is formed on a foundation of unconditional love and compassion for ourselves and others.

This Little Paper Dream is the first collection from Two Rubies.

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photo: confetti system

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Over the next few months, I will be writing periodic reports on my little paper dream. These reports are written in a journal format to help express how this journey unfolds. I would love your feedback/comments as I write these reports (would be really helpful!). Also, if you have any questions, please don’t hesitate to ask in the comments or via email!

*If you have no idea what crazy little paper dream I’m talking about, check out report no. 1 and report no. 2.

This little paper dream of mine is getting real—really real. I think I just realized that. It’s so much more fun to dream than to implement. However, turning this dream into a reality is turning into a very rewarding (and fun) process!

Things I’ve relearned about myself so far:

  • I’m very hard on myself.
  • I set unrealistic expectations.
  • I don’t give up.
  • I’m not good at letting others help me (but I’m trying so very hard to get better at this).

The Not So Good

I’m upset with myself about the timing of this project. Although it may not have looked like it, this past year has been a less hectic year for me schedule wise. I wish I would have started this project and been able to release the final product when I had time to fully enjoy it. When the paper dream comes to life, my schedule will again be in overdrive. I really want to soak up this experience so will try my best to be gentle on myself and celebrate this little paper dream despite an over filled calendar. To this end, I’ve begun brainstorming what I want my involvement to look like when this paper dream launches. The goal is to begin preparing ahead of time for my ideal involvement rather than when I’m feeling overwhelmed and absolutely exhausted.

The Good

Currently, I have a lot of different components in motion. I need to begin to pull the pieces together and get back to big picture planning and project management.

I went a bit overboard with all the details. I did not slack off on any area. I want this experience and dream to fully come alive and to do that I had to find just the right people to compose my “dream team!” The dream team is pretty much complete and I’m really proud of the diversity of talents I’ve brought together.

Since the last report, I found a new printer (Mama’s Sauce) and officially placed the order yesterday! I have also finalized most of the photo styling ideas with the ladies of Beau and Arrow (who are truly beyond amazing, so creative and detail-oriented—the perfect combination).

As an aside: why does nobody share their resources in this business!? It’s crazy to me. I’m obviously not following that rule and will be sharing all the resources along the way (will even put together a little resource guide for other dreamers at the end of this journey).

Reflection

I’ve been thinking a lot about my preparation going into this project. And it’s eerily similar to my preparation going into almost all of my past dreams that became a reality.

I jumped into this project without doing much (or any) real research. I can probably safely say that no business consultant would advise this tactic. There are so many things I could have learned before embarking on this paper project that would have made the logistics SO MUCH EASIER, but I didn’t. Honestly, if I knew about all the work that this little dream would entail, I probably would have never started. I would have over researched and over analyzed until the passion dwindled away. So I guess you can say I learn things the hard way; however, I learn them my own way which is most important to me. I don’t think there is any one formula for anything we do. Each person comes from a different background with different experiences/different knowledge/different resources. We best learn what works for us by diving in and doing some experimental navigating. And by doing things a little differently than everyone else, you tend to stand out which can be the hardest variable of all to master.

So many people ask me, how I’ve done some of the things I’ve accomplished. Honestly, I have no idea. I work my butt off and let my passion speak for itself. You can’t learn passion, but you surely can express it. That’s my formula I suppose. Find your passion and let it be your primary guide. The how will connect the dots, but the dots are scattered from point a to point b by passion. It sounds crazy and similar to the trite advice to “follow your passion and the money will follow.” Yes, follow your passion. But passion does not equal financial success. There is a strong relationship between the two, but it’s simply that—a relationship. It’s a relationship that requires a lot of hard work and perseverance.

What I’ve learned through this project, this little paper dream, is that above all else keep your passion alive. When your passion begins to fade, you are steering in the wrong direction. Find a way to keep that passion sparked and you will find a way to make your dream a reality.

Next Steps

… I’m digging into Pink Elephant’s workbooks for creative entrepreneurs. I’m not an affiliate but a huge fan of these workbooks. They are helping me turn the words behind this project into a beautiful story.

… I’m going to create a mailing list for this little paper dream that lives separately from my other projects. I will share the list if you are interested in signing up when I’ve got that checked off my list. UPDATE 6.29: Sign up for the list here!

Thank you so much for sharing this journey with me. I can’t wait for Report No. 4 and to see what new surprises will pop up for me to discuss.

photo credit: kate spade via neo-traditionalist; text by carolyn for a beautiful ripple effect

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Over the next few months, I will be writing periodic reports on my little paper dream. These reports are written in a journal format to help express how this journey unfolds. I would love your feedback/comments as I write these reports (would be really helpful!). Also, if you have any questions, please don’t hesitate to ask in the comments or via email!

In my first report, I shared the inspiration behind this little dream of mine. Since that report, I’ve made a lot of progress but not as much as I had hoped. As soon as I shared this little dream report, I became a bit crippled by the anxiety of what others would think. Would I fail your expectations? Would I be compared to others who have done this paper thing so well? Would no one buy any of these little dreams of mine? These questions and fears feel horrible to share but I don’t think that I’m alone in feeling these things/thinking these thoughts.

Whenever we navigate an unknown process in front of others isn’t there always a sense of wonder about how we are being observed by those watching? Yet, to ask this question means we believe people are watching. For whatever reason, we believe that others are intrigued by our actions. For me, this realization that our actions have repercussions is what propels me. If by sharing this dream of mine and making it a reality allow others to do the same (i.e., follow their own dreams—follow your own dream) then this scary process of sharing is all worth it for me. If my dream succeeds, then I hope I can share what made that happen. If my dream flops and no one buys a single item then I hope I can share what may have contributed to this happening. There will be lessons to be learned regardless of the outcome. Finally arriving at this perspective, I feel at peace not knowing what the outcome will be. Will I feel joy? Will I feel disappointment? I hope I feel lots of emotions and will share these emotions. I won’t sugar coat it. I’ve done my share of sugarcoating in the past and learned my lesson. It doesn’t help me or anyone else.

Since Report No. 1

=> I had the most wonderful chat with my friend, Piper (One Sydney Road). She gave some incredible advice from her perspective as a shop owner. To see this project from her unique perspective opened my eyes a lot. It’s easy to see things solely from your own perspective, especially when you are working for the most part alone. You forget how much you don’t know and how much you can learn by reaching out to others.

=> I have been focusing on how to accurately portray what makes this little paper dream so unique. I realized how important the photos will be to tell this story. Aside from product photographs, I will be creating a visual story that brings this paper alive. To help me do this, I am working with the uber talented duo behind Beau & Arrow.

=> We’ve had a little setback with the printer working on this project. Right before going to print, the printer realized they had made a $500 error in their original estimate. Obviously this error is not minor. I’m so lucky to have Carolynn by my side. She is a miracle worker. She is already lining up different options and one option that could possibly (fingers crossed!) be better than our original printer in so many ways. However, this error means our timeline is up in the air.

Next Steps

=> Receive estimates from new printers. Select the printer for this project and receive samples. After samples are approved, the production process will begin.

=> Revise and finalize project timeline.

=> Set up shop website using Big Cartel.

What I Need Help With

As I move through this process, I’m learning that there is so much that I will need help with! I’m going to flex my “ask for help” muscles in these reports. If you know someone or are someone that could possibly help with an item below, please send me an email at carolynblog@me.com with the subject, “Little Paper Dream.”

=> Product Launch/Marketing Consultant to help launch my little paper dream to the right people.

=> Copywriting for shop website and product pages.

image: the wheatfield

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Over the next few months, I will be writing periodic reports on my little paper dream. These reports are written in a journal format to help express how this journey unfolds. I would love your feedback/comments as I write these reports (would be really helpful!). Also, if you have any questions, please don’t hesitate to ask in the comments or via email!

For as long as I can remember, I’ve been obsessed with paper goods. As a little girl I learned the art of handwritten letters from my mom who instilled the habit of writing a handwritten thank you note for anything and everything—when in doubt, write a thank you note on beautiful stationery! Then, as a teenager, I began a pen pal program focused on writing handwritten letters to children in the hospital. I found the benefits of these letters to extend far beyond the words on the paper. To hold a tangible sentiment from another person builds a unique connection. To receive handwritten letters lifted the spirits of the children isolated from their social world. But what I loved most was how these letters became treasured items kept and displayed for years. When my best friend, Matt, was in isolation after his stem cell transplant, I promised to send him 30 letters to help him through this time so he didn’t feel so alone. These letters became a sacred thread in our relationship. I will always treasure the notes I have from him. Even though he is no longer physically present, whenever I miss our connection, I can open my box of cards and see his handwriting and hear his voice.

What I’ve learned is that the art of the handwritten letter is multifaceted. It’s not simply about pulling out a piece of stationery, writing a couple sentences, and putting the letter in the postal box. It’s also about the life of this handwritten letter. How will the recipient feel when she receives this card in the mail? How will she hold on to this sentiment as a reminder of the joy in her life? Most often, we end up with cards in boxes or a couple displayed on our desk. And for me, this diminishes the potential impact of the handwritten letter.

For many years, I’ve talked about this little dream of mine—to start a small collection of paper goods that would somehow change the impact of the handwritten letter. In 2012, I am making this dream a reality—crazy, scary, exciting, and oh my gosh is this really happening! My emotions are all over the place because this is a very new type of project for me. I also know that I’ve built this project up so much in mind that the reality will not equal the fantasy. As such, I must tackle my perfectionistic tendencies every step of the way to make this happen. I hope that these reports help me do that by making me more publicly accountable.

With all dreams and huge scary goals, we must choose to start—somewhere, anywhere. I’m going to post little reports over time as I navigate this process and hope these reports inspire you to begin bringing one of your dreams into reality.

Capture the Dream

Big crazy scary dreams have a way of percolating within our minds. They seem to stay there gathering dust until something triggers forward momentum. For me, this dream of creating a line of greeting cards has been on the back-burner. Until about nine months ago, the dream was to create a general line of stationery in the very distant future. Then, I had a flash of inspiration while getting ready to go to sleep. I could visualize my first designs. It was crazy exciting (an understatement!). I sketched these visions onto scrap paper and tucked them into my journal. These sketches were the triggers that began the forward momentum. The sketches made this dream more tangible. I now knew the product I wanted to create and was determined to figure the rest out.

Share the Dream

It’s not always necessary to share your crazy wild dream with someone else. For me, I needed to go over this dream with my husband. I showed him the sketches and shared the general concept. Then, I asked him repeatedly, “Is this crazy?” “Should I go for it?” I was full of uncertainty and wanted to be sure that he also believed in this dream (he did and does!). Most importantly, we then needed to crunch some numbers to determine how much we could safely invest into this project without going into our savings. With a target budget created*, we came to the decision that it was GO TIME! YIPPEE!

* I love numbers but am horrible with budgets and creating financial models. I also know nothing about the world of retail and the different costs involved. While I could have spent an incredible amount of time learning the ins and outs of the stationery business, I decided that since this is still a little dream (and not my full time job) that I would try my best to connect with the right people who could help me along the way. For the financial side of this little paper dream, I knew my husband was the best person for the job. I have appointed him Chief Financial Paper Dream Guru. He also has a lot of experience in retail so that knowledge comes in handy when thinking through the details of producing a product and then figuring out the best methods for selling this product. For the ins and outs of the stationery business, I turned to Carolynn of Two Brunettes. I adore Carolynn and have worked with her for years on both personal and professional projects. She can read my mind which is a pretty amazing talent. Carolynn is helping me navigate this process (lots of hand holding) and really making the experience more enjoyable than I ever imagined.

Next Steps

In the next report, I’ll share more information about this process and where we are in the design/production. I’ll also continue to share any resources that I find helpful as I navigate this unknown territory. I don’t have a “launch date” yet but am hoping for this summer. My first line will consist of four designs (likely sold separately as well as in a set). The collection will be small so I’ll probably set up a pre-order form in the near future so you can reserve cards before they are released.

What I Need Help With

As I move through this process, I’m learning that there is so much that I will need help with! I’m going to flex my “ask for help” muscles in these reports. If you know someone or are someone that could possibly help with an item below, please send me an email at carolynblog@me.com with the subject, “Little Paper Dream.”

=> Virtual Assistant to help manage this project. Super organized, Loves paper, Some experience related to a similar project would be a plus, Loves learning and Self-Starter.

=> Product Stylist to work with me to create the vision I have in mind for the product photo-shoot. If the stylist and photographer work together in the US (but not in Miami), I am willing to travel for the photo-shoot.

=> Photographer to work with me and product stylist to create product images and look-book.

=> Product Launch Consultant to help launch my little paper dream to the right people.

EndNote

… Feeling: I’m feeling pretty vulnerable and scared. I know I can’t do this on my own and hope that I find the right people to help make this dream a reality. I am fearful that I won’t find these right people and I’ll get stuck at the finish line. Of course, I also fear that no one will like these cards and I won’t be able to convey what makes these cards truly special and different from what is available. While these feelings are lurking within, I am fueled forward with each new step I take (like sharing this report).

… What I Know: I will make this dream a reality. There may be a few more bumps than I would like but each bump will contain new knowledge.

images: top image by katie rodgers (paperfashionshop on etsy) [pin top image --> ], bottom image by carolyn [pin lower image--> ]

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Do you ever feel as if you’ve hit rock bottom? Maybe you’ve taken a leap of faith and the wings you had hoped would appear on the way down never developed. You followed a calling, listened to a burning passion, and hoped the results would be stunning. You bet on Plan A working, but it didn’t. The results are less than miraculous. You feel defeated. The hardest part of being in this state of defeat is not the public humiliation or the blood, sweat, and tears you fed this calling. Rather, the hardest part of feeling defeated is the difficulty associated with dreaming again.

In order to dream again, really dream—bigger than big dreams, you must believe in yourself—in your ability to make your dreams a reality. There is no easy fail-proof way to regain your self-confidence. However, there are steps you can take to begin to rebuild your self-confidence. The goal is to avoid becoming your worst enemy—criticizing yourself at every time. It’s okay to feel defeated, but it’s not okay to BE defeated.

To rebuild your self-confidence, begin to notice when your inner critic takes the stage. Rather than feed this critic, redirect your attention. Below are quotes I’ve collected to help you with this redirection. Find the words that resonate for you and write them in your journal or bookmark this post to easily find words to focus on when your inner critic vies for your attention. Little actions, such as reading a few quotes, can create large changes in your life. The key is to make these little actions very simple for you to actually do. I hope these quotes provide restorative nourishment as you move forward on your journey.

You may have a fresh start any time you choose, for this thing we call “failure” is not in the falling down, but in the staying down. —Mary Pickford

I was inspired to create my own opportunity and not to let others determine what my life could be. —Laura Nelli in Rue Mag (Jan 2012)

Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure. —Oprah Winfrey

Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark. In the hopeless swamp of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all, do not let the hero in your soul perish and leave only frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won, it exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours. —Ayn Rand

The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen. —Elizabeth Kubler Ross

We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope. —Martin Luther King

When you walk to the edge of all the light you have and take that first step into the darkness of the unknown, you must believe that one of two things will happen: There will be something solid for you to stand upon, or, you will be taught how to fly. —Patrick Overton

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent. —Eleanor Roosevelt

We delight in the beauty of the butterfly, but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve that beauty.  —Maya Angelou

Fall seven times, stand up eight. —Japanese proverb

We are all faced with a series of great opportunities brilliantly disguised as impossible situations. —Charles Swindoll

Prosperity is not without many fears and disasters; and adversity is not without comforts and hopes. —Francis Bacon

Keep in mind that neither success nor failure is ever final. —Roger Babson

It is better to fail in originality than to succeed in imitation. —Herman Melville

Believe in yourself and all that you are. Know that there is something inside you that is greater than any obstacle. —Christian D. Larson

Mistakes are a natural part of life. We learn by experimenting; mistakes and failure can be important parts of our learning process. Einstein flunked grade-school mathematics. Edison tried over 9,000 kinds of filaments before he found one that would work in a light bulb. Walt Disney went bankrupt five times before he built Disneyland. If we accept setbacks, we can continue to risk, learn, and move on with excitement and satisfaction. —California Task Force to Promote Self-Esteem and Personal and Social Responsibility

You are enough. —@happyolks via twitter

This too shall pass. —@aboundlessworld via twitter

The greater the difficulty, the more glory in surmounting it. Skillful pilots gain their reputation from storms and tempests. —Epictetus

In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on. —Robert Frost

The only way to get through life is to laugh your way through it. You either have to laugh or cry. I prefer to laugh. Crying gives me a headache. —Marjorie Pay Hinckley

Failure is the condiment that gives success its flavor. —Truman Capote

There comes a point when you either embrace who and what you are, or condemn yourself to be miserable all your days. Other people will try to make you miserable; don’t help them by doing the job yourself. —Laurell K. Hamilton

Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts. —Winston Churchill

It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. —Theodore Roosevelt

Just because you fail once doesn’t mean you’re gonna fail at everything. —Marilyn Monroe

The past has no power over the present moment. —Eckhart Tolle

What quote resonates for you? Do you have a quote to add to this list?

image: kikki-k

daily quote inspiration (i’m addicted to quotes!): quote art on pinterest + short quotes on twitter (#quote)

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